What The Fuck?! | |
06.10.03 //_ 11:56 PM | |
[London Calling = Ryan; Black Cherry = Me]
London Calling says: do you have a crush on jake mckibben? London Calling says: i think he likes you London Calling says: jake typed that black cherry says: huh? London Calling says: nevermind London Calling says: wrong jeff spalding London Calling says: my bad black cherry says: no this is jeff spalding London Calling says: i know three or so London Calling says: all gay black cherry says: im not gay London Calling says: i know!!! London Calling says: girlfriend London Calling says: this kid alex strehl has a fattie crush on you London Calling says: no joke London Calling says: add him and cyber London Calling says: black cherry says: um no London Calling says: i know you laready did London Calling says: already** black cherry says: yeah, sad isn't it? London Calling says: emily reese said you like guys black cherry says: yeah im bisexual. London Calling says: no shit bro London Calling says: so is my friend mark black cherry says: mark webber? London Calling says: allsion black cherry says: oh London Calling says: and mark w. London Calling says: not allison London Calling says: hes straight gay black cherry says: what? London Calling says:
black cherry says: okay London Calling says: what do you want to chat about black cherry says: i dont know London Calling says: what have you done with a guy? black cherry says: nothing black cherry says: i have never had aboyfriedn yet black cherry says: *a boyfriend London Calling says: i live in a scrath black cherry says: thats nice? black cherry says: whats a scrath London Calling says: if your bi you should know black cherry says: well i dont London Calling says: shut up London Calling says: fag black cherry says: then why are you talking to me London Calling says: GOD London Calling says: you added me London Calling says: you have no life London Calling says: KIDDING London Calling says: that was my mean friend ben gunnerson London Calling says: i like you London Calling says: your a nice kid London Calling says: bybyee3weq ---------------------------------------- i feel.. as if i've been slapped across the face with a double ended sword. i have no clue what just happened. all i can tell by what he's told me is that jake and ben were there. and ij ust told him my seuxuality and what will happen now? he knows. im shaking at this momnet. things that i want to know now: 1. who told him i don't know what to think anymnore. i'm scared.. i want to go somewhere.. i need to sit and think about this.. but im afraid to go to sleep. i want to stay online to talk to see if he comes back but i dont want any more critisism.. what will happen next year? will he tell everyoen? will i turn into a statistic? will the next time someone sees me is on the channel 3 news in a body bag? .. i cant figure whats going on.. and like i said way before is i go by the worst possible scenario and work from there.. if emily told him about me.. im okay with that cause i told her before that she could if she felt they were mature enough to know. and yes, i did look up those people that he said either liked me or where bisexual and they're listed in the yearbook. i just feel.. raped all over again. i feel like my dignity and pride and self-worth has been .. torn and ripped to shreds and then i feel like everyone is pointing and laughing at me.. i .. i cnat do this anymore. im scared.. so scared and i dont have any clue .. why? .. |
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