I'm so fucking tired right now. We just took out last load of the day up to the property.. I almost broke my fucking finger from when we were moving our huge ass TV up the stairs.. It doesn't hurt anymore but if it was at a different place when we set it down -- I probably wouldn't have a finger.
It's getting so hot around here too.. Which should be go for tomorrow since I'm gonna be going swimmin' with friends at the lake.. And I'll be able to see how BJ looks without a shirt on .. ::nudge nudge:: eh?? EH!?!
After we dropped off a bunch of shit at the house, we went over to some dudes house who was gonna talk to my rents about plans for our house.. so I stayed in the car and as I was sitting there, I looked in the mirror and my arm was at such an angle -- it was showing the back of my arm (forgot what it's called) and OH MY GOD. I was disgusted at how thin I am.. Yeah, sure, I had thought I was strong and semi-buff in the arm area but that's only in the biceps, below that it's really thin and it's DISGUSTING. I cannot describe to you how much it was.. I hate myself so much right now. I wanna eat a ton of food now to change that. But we have nothing here!! Ah!!
But I have made a deal with myself.. and this time it's no shit.. Once we move everything out of here and at the new house -- I am actually going to work out more. All this talking with BJ (since he's a huge ass teen-buffy) and me noticing how disgusting I am.. I have to do it.. I'm more motivated now.. But I probably wont start it for another week -- my fucking hands are so sore at the moment from all the lifting and shit. I hate it.
But back to my anorexia.. ::rolls eyes:: I can't believe this!! Why am I so thin?! I hate being thin, I want to be normal.. I want to be nice looking -- I want girls to be like, "Damn.." and guys to think, "FUCK!!" .. haha. I wanna try and accomplish this before school starts down there.. at least get 2 inches more buff. That's all I really need. But more wouldn't hurt...
You know.. I need to call up Trevor and see if he can come tomorrow. I still haven't called him.. So I'm gonna do that in a few minutes.. BJ just came online and I think I'm gonna talk to him for a bit.. ;)
I wonder if I eat enough that all the fat will spread out over my body.. and not just stick around my gut. I think I need to gain weight everywhere but .. yeah.
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Okay, I just got back from dinner.. This entree started at 7:35, and now it's 9:00. While we were over having dinner, I noticed that I saw a few people that I knew from school there. They were all "preppy cheerleader" type girls though. Which didn't interest me.. I hate their personalities.. anyway..
They were talking and at once point they were all talking and then looking over in my direction. It was fuckin' obvious they were talking about me. I was pissed off at the fact that they were talking about me.. cause knowing those types of girls -- they were probably saying, "Yeah.. well that that guy over there.. he's creeping me out.. look at him!!" But I tried to just ignore them and act oblivious to them regardless.
But there was 2 guys there that were pretty cute. I think they were brothers -- both thin though. But they pulled it off. And I guess I do too.. :-/
Well isn't this a bitch? I gotta go load MORE FUCKING SHIT INTO THE TRUCK. I came out of the bathroom and my dad's standing there and says, "Ready to load more stuff??" so I replied with, "no." and then he responds with, "Well, lets go load some stuff or else you won't be on that computer for the rest of the summer."
I HATE IT WHEN RENTS THREATEN YOU LIKE THAT. I'll be back in probably 40 minutes.. My bitchy ass Father is calling me.. I hate his tone.. >_<
Wow.. well that actually took about 70 minutes.. Well, at least that�s all done -- and Trevor called and said he could make it. Seems like everything is going to plan. Yay. All I gotta do is talk to Roxy and Ashley B, and everyone else will probably be fine.
Oh.. my.. fucking.. god.. I just weighed myself and I weigh 140 right now. What the fuck? I weighed like 145 last time I checked which was about a month ago.. HOW THE FUCK CAN I BE LOOSING WEIGHT?!?! My fucking god.. I need to like eat everything I can get my hands on now. Ugh.. I can't believe I lost weight! I'm so pissed off now. I was talking to BJ about this and he said that Brittany and I tend to observe ourselves too much, more than anyone notices or cares.. and I bet that's right. I know I have a major image issue. I've already typed out why repeatedly.. so just skip all that.
I'm hoping that tomorrow will be really fun. [I don't know what else to type about.. so fuck you and your phrases like, "Hey! You're boring now!! SHOW ME PICTURES OF HOT GUYS!!" .. we'll get to that later ;)] Especially if Kensey comes too.. I can't wait to see her again. It's sad though, cause this is like the last time I'm gonna see all my friends together like this.. ::sigh:: Well, it's better than never seeing them, so I'm gonna enjoy the most that I can out of it. :D
Hah, well now I guess you'll get what most of you have come for.. more hot pictures of guys!! [sorry to all the guys that read this.. you'll have to just observe the pictures.. maybe you can take tips on what's hot and what�s not.. ;) hah, I'm just playin' d00d]
Well, the following few pictures are from the video "A.D.I.D.A.S." by Korn. So David is kinda dressed up as if he was a dead guy. Cute huh? Hehe..
Hehe, look at his face wrinkles!!
Haha, now that looks like a porno face.. hehe.
Yay! Now onto the hot pictures.. [not that those ones above weren't.. just that they were more interesting.. hehe.]
Look at that nipple ring!! :P
That one is probably one of my favorite pictures of him.. good pic of his pecs and stuff. It's really cute. ;)
Look at his cute little goatee!
That picture was taken during the recording of their first album, so it's kinda old.. but still hot.
That photo was taken from the video, "Alone I Break" .. David's such a pimp.. and I hate those chicks by him.. I wanna kill them.. both.. now.. >_<
That one and the next one is from a series of photos he did for an ad. These ones are probably the most popular.. since they're just so fuckin' hot.
Now THAT one above is my favorite one of all time. It's just so.. erotic in my eyes. Look at his chest! His armpit! His legs.. UGH he has it all.. plus his legs are my fetish ;)
And that picture reminds me of a sexier-version of that blueberry girl in Willy Wonka, know what I'm talking about? Well.. the first girl was sexy, but David would've been sexier in that role. WAY SEXIER!! Haha. Yeah he kinda has a weird expression in that picture.. but it's still David ;)
And now for the last one.. It's a picture of him and his son, David Jr. It's such an adorable picture. Daddy and son.. AWWW!!
Hehe. Well that's about all I have of David that are worth me posting in here. Whew.. this entree is burnin' up! :D
Well, remember a while back when I said that Ryan was all mad cause I supposedly "blocked" him on his other account? Well, he came online on the account that I supposedly blocked him, and I was like, "See, d00d I never blocked you.." and he was like, "..oh. I'm sorry.." .. Yeah so he came online and we talked.. only this time I'm not going to take the initiative and get all interested in him again. He's not really worth it anymore. He may be cute, but he's a total jackass when he gets mad, but I still like talking to him. Heh.
I also talked to BJ online a while ago too. He's definitely coming tomorrow.. so I'm all excited now.. Ehehe!! I get to see him shirtless tomorrow.. he was like, "I'm not that buff, but you can see for yourself tomorrow.."
..Hell yeah I'm gonna see for myself!! :P
You know what I find strange.. how once I update my diary -- like in 5 minutes, there's like 3 people that come immediately and check what I updated with.. I can tell by the little number thing that counts how many people come here. It's strange.. but hey, I noticed I'm getting pretty "popular" with that 100 Diaries thing. I'm number 31, last time I checked.. which was actually like last week.. so I'll check that again. But ehehe, I'm glad someone found something interesting with my diary.. psh..
I finally took a shower -- I haven't taken one in like .. 3 days.. O_o Talk about nasty. I feel all squeaky clean now.. how erotic. ;)
Well, up at the other house we're renting in.. we got a lot of things up there already, and we're taking like the couch and tools up tomorrow morning. The house actually looks like someone's roaming around in there too. We have our TV and tables and shit already in there.. I still need to get my TV, bed and dresser in there sometime soon. Whew.. the next 2 days will be hectic.. We have to be in the new house in about .. well actually 4 days, but my dad is aiming at getting it all done by Saturday night. So then we'll probably actually be sleeping there the night of Sunday. And you can count on me updating.. at least trying my hardest..
While I was talking to Ryan, he actually made me feel a bit better about moving. He was trying to show the point that things could've been worse.. like moving out of state.. so I appreciated that. He's nice when he wants to be, but can be a complete ass when he's mad..
"Oh god the anger's changing me.."
Well.. that's strange. I was just listening to Korn and now my play list is playing Jewel. Hah, great mix of music huh? I'm a pretty flexible guy when it comes to good music. Lets see what's in my play list for all you folk out there who are curious as to whom I listen to:
- Korn
- White Town
- White Stripes
- Tori Amos
- Matrix Reloaded Soundtrack
- Smile Empty Soul
- Queens Of The Stoneage
- Papa Roach
- No Doubt
- Mindless Self Indulgence
- Modest Mouse
- Mandalay
- Led Zepplin
- Jewel
- Joy Drop
- John Mayor
- Kelis
- Ficherspooner
- Evanescence
- Emma Bunton
- Daniel Beddingfield
- Chevelle
- Bright Eyes
- Bouncing Souls
- Beatles
- Aaliyah
- Audiovent
Whew.. that's all on my random play list.. that doesn�t include about the 70 other artists I have on my computer. :D
Well I think that's enough updating for tonight.. I'll update tomorrow after the party and stuff.. Probably around 11:00.. or earlier if you're lucky. Hehe. Hope you enjoyed my boring rants.. then thrilled with my picture posting!! (he's so hot, just admit it..) and then interested in my bands. Eh.. you're right.. who cares??
[Haha, I just ran this through word and I spelt NOTHING wrong!! Fuckin� awesome..
Side note: This entree took up 6 pages.. O_O]
Nite everyone.
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