I got back from my 2 hour walk. For the most part it was rewarding in a sense for me. I was excersizing and getting myself out there to be seen among all the people. And as I was walking down the street just a few houses away from mine, there must've been a party or something cause as I was walking by I saw a shirtless dude talking to some girl and then about 5 people talking and shit in the front yard. I walked by trying to be mysterious and pretend like I didn't notice them. They all looked like Juniors &/or Seniors anyway.

Another thing that happened was when I was walking past the school, I had planned on walking forward on the street but I spotted a guy walking down the hill ahead of me.. and I thought about what I should do -- should I keep walking forward and have a confrontation or turn left and play it off like I was planning on doing that all along.. The guy was wearing all black and was looking punk-ish.. but I was still afraid and shy so I turned left. Then a guy must've thought he knew me and was leaning out the passangers side of his friends car and looked as if he was gonna yell somethin' at me but as he passed by me, I stared at him and he didn't say a thing. He just got back in the car after that. It was strange but it made me feel a sense of .. acceptance even though it really wasn't.

I walked through the town and stopped at a bus stop and sat. I mustve sat there for a good 5 minutes just thinking about things. As cars passed by me and lights cascaded off my profile.. all I could really think about is the future. How schools gonna be and the such.. Then I finally just got up and started heading back home.

On the way [it was already dark by now] I was passing the school and I hear this noise like someone jumping.. I look to my right and I see a baby doe. It stopped and stared and me and we mustve stared at each other for 5 minutes.. then it frolicked off into the woods. It was a cool experience. I hope he'll be okay and not get run over any time soon.

I then got home and was out of breath, sweaty and tired. My feet were/are killing me. I immediately took a shower and now I feel so nice and squeaky clean.

One thing that I enjoyed the most was seeing people in their cars look over at me and that split-second-thought of, "Hey, who's that?" flash into their head.. makes me feel like when school starts at least someone will have a faint idea of who I am. I guess I can use that as my excuse of being outgoing.

I just want new friends so badly right now. I'm tired of being bored all day and just hanging around. I wish someone would stop me in the street and just start talking to me. It'll be hard for me to not make some hot guy friends. Everyones hot around here -- there's no escaping it. ;D

You know what I could go for right about now? Some good cheesecake. I haven't had a mother fuckin' cheesecake in so long.. MmmmMmmmMmM....

I read on Otep's diary that she said she doesn't "hate men but, YES YES YES I like girls.." I don't know exactly what that means ... it could mean she's a lesbian or she's just pissed off at some guy. I don't know. But it really isn't any of my buisness, but if she is a lesbian -- more power to her. :D

You know what I think we need to revivie?..

HOT GUY TIME!! WEEEEEeeeeeeeee... I'll make another entree in an hour with a bunch of hot guy pictures [nothing pornographic though ;D] just for all of you. So stay tuned .. the coming hour you'll be seeing some top-notch hotties!! hehe!! Cause we all know what I'm good at.. Haha.

Check back in an hour everyone .. =->