Yeah, well I hope you enjoyed my last entree. Well, even if you didnt like it -- screw you cause it's my diary and I can post hot guys if I want. It's all for me anyway..

My father has some friends over right now. In-fact they're going out to Nevada City on the motorcycles to go look around or whatever. May I remind you these are the same friends in which I had a relationship with their daughter. O_o Before she dumped me.

I was recently on Golfrapps website [http://www.goldfrapp.co.uk] and I noticed that their new single, "Strict Machine" is coming out in stores tomorrow!! W00h00! I got to see the music video [which is on their site] and WOW. That video is so strange but it's so great. The songs great too so it's just .. awesome. I also heard that their next single will be "Twist" and the theme for the song will be Fairgrounds and Giant Bears. Interesting.. But check out this wallpaper that they have: http://www.goldfrapp.co.uk/wallpaper/wall01_800x600.jpg . I don't know about you but that Rabbit girl really REALLY freaks me out.. I mean, just look at it!! .. AH!! .. But Allison Goldfrapp is beautiful as always. :D

.. Okay I just have to post this picture once more cause this guy is just SO incredably handsome.

Even my straight friend Jeff S. whom I met online a few years ago agrees that he's handsome. Ya know, I would've emailed that guy from hotornot but I guess hotornot has a policy and in that policy is a thing where you can't contact anyone from the site unless you're a part of the site yourself.. HAH, nice try. I'm definetly not going to subject myself to humilation on that site by getting rated a 2 or something. That would destroy my confidence .. or any of it that I have left anyway.

I spent like 4 hours last night looking up so much porn. Haha, sorry for being blunt but hey it's the truth. Me and this guy I met online were searching websites for pictures and sending the good ones to each other. I did that for like 4 hours until about 3:00 AM..

Which reminds me of the fact that I haven't been going to bed like I used to. I used to go bed around 1:00 AM but now I start thinking about it around 2:30 AM or 3:00 AM. I don't know why.. but regardless I get so pissed off when I do go to bed cause I end up getting really hot and then start cussing at myself.. Yeah, sounds funny.. I know. And I absolutely HATE it when my father comes in my room and turns off the fan at like 7:00 AM and then I wake up at 9:40 AM and am all sweaty, aggitated, pissed off, annoyed and aggrivated. And for the past few days I've been waking up with bloodshot red eyes. And they itch and shit. I might have fuckin' pink eye or bad allergies .. I don't know. But I took some Visine and they're fine now.. God I hate the summer time. Fall and Winter are the best seasons.

Startng tomorrow I will be starting my Hate-Athon. I'll be making an entree everyday as a count-down to the #1 thing I hate. ..damn that should be hard.. Anyway, I'll still be making other entree's aswell during the process -- and just so you don't get confused or miss an entree of the Hate-Athon, I'll be naming them something like: Hate-Athon..Day 1.. etc.. Something like that. :D

You know, once school starts and I have P.E. class -- I'm gonna try my hardest to push myself to the limit. I need to get into shape and looking at that guys picture I just posted above aways makes me REALLY wanna look like that [body wise] and I can achieve that. I can and I will. It'll take time and determination.. but I'm serious. I would be working out now but the weight equipment is fucked up and packed away so I can't really do anything except walking ya know? But I'm gonna put myself to the limit cause I would love to have a body like that dudes.

Sometimes seeing all these attractive guys around me makes me feel depressed. It makes me realize my flaws.. how thin I am.. how un-attractive I am.. what I can do but choose not to.. it just sucks. I bet girls go through the same thing. It sucks.. but in a way its good so then you can act upon it and try to improve yourself.. right?

I feel so worthless right now. I've done nothing since I've been in Grass Valley. Made no friends [yet] and all I do is stick around on the computer. I wish there were some activities around here.. or if I could drive -- that would help a lot.

I think I'm gonna go make like two grilled cheese sandwiches [it's like the only thing I know how to "cook"] so I can gain some weight.. :-/

...I'm talking to BJ right now and he keeps talking about these steroids... Now, I'm one for self-gratification but steroids isn't the way to go. You have to work for what you get -- not cheat your way to results, plus I don't want BJ looking ugly-buff. He looks cute the way he is, I don't want him to get bigger than .. well I just dont want him to look really muscular and ugly. That wouldn't be very good, now would it?

You know, I just realized that people read my diary.. haha no I mean like.. Okay if you're reading this and you're a gay//bi//bi curious male reading this.. leave me a note or email me ;D Even though I bet that even if there was one he wouldn't email me anyway. I probably scared them off already .. ;(

Well, I'm gonna go for now, I'll update around 4:00 or 5:00. Have a good day everyone hehe, enjoy the heat while you can I guess. But as for me, I'll just stick to staying inside.. ;)

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