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Hold Me In Your Arms And Never Let Me Go. Hold Me In Your Arms Cause I Need You So
September 28, 2003 //_ 11:11 AM

I have to clean my room. Then clean the bathroom. Then do my homework. Then come back online to talk to people that I forgot to say goodbye to last night. My internet is being a bitch lately.

May not seem like a lot of stuff to do. But for me, oh yes it is. And I'm hungry.. but I don't want to make anything here cause the food here isn't actually edible. Or digestible. Either way, they're not going through my stomach and out my ass. So forget that, Mr. Bill Simon.

*sigh* I talked to Chris last night on the phone. His roommate was there at the time (which is why he wasn't really talking much to me) so yeah. I fixed things with him. I still have to talk to Zeddlin. Don't know what I'm going to do.

Fuck fuckity fuck fuck.
[Wow, look at me turn into Roxy! =P]

I had a weird dream last night. It was of Nate and I, we were in some room with mirrors and in our boxers. And he started rubbing my crotch area.. and I looked at him and then started rubbing his ass. We just kinda did that for a while. Nothing sexual though [no ass fucking or sucking, for all your information]. And Nate will read this thinking I'm a freak. Heh. Well, dreams like this don't mean what they seem, if that made any sense. I believe I got the whole "rubbing crotches" thing from thinking about porn or something, and it just so happens that Nate IMed me before my internet got fucked up. So I have a fucked up mind. Nice.

And I'm really starting to get pissed off at my step mother. She came in this morning saying, "Get up now, or you won't have any computer privileges for today.."

Well sorry cunt. God, I get pretty fuckin' pissed off when people TELL me things rather than ASKING things. There's a difference, which ultimately decides how I'll be feeling the rest of the day. Just so happens I'm in a pissy mood. The joys. Oh, oh the joys.

And I got to thinking last night..

I don't have any real friend at NU yet. There's not 1 friend that I can come to with my problems. Not yet. I would say Jessi .. or Josh .. or something. But they're not there for me. Much like they don't know I want them there for me. I don't know. I've made many acquaintances and friends.. but no best friends. =(

And Zack keeps flirting with me. I don't like it.

Then Chris should be coming up to Nevada City in October. Yay! And then another friend of mine I met online (who lives in San Diego) will be coming up here in 3 weeks to see me. Yay! Should be an exciting month. Plus, I'm still waiting for that Goldfrapp shit to come in the mail..

Well.. My parents are back from a motorcycle ride .. or whatever. So I should get a start on my room and bathroom .. fuck ..

Just hope that I'll be going out to lunch.. I love food.. Fast food = god.

Last night I found a song on Launch which I absolutely love.
Lasgo -- "Something"

Cheers my deers.

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