This weekend was pretty fun. On Saterday we went to a gay-gay dance which was pretty interesting. We got there and as soon as we got in the room, I noticed this one guy that was really cute. As the night progressed, they had played "Toxic" and "Milkshake" (FUCK YES!) And we all danced and had a great time. When the dance started to end (around 20 minutes left till it ended) we went outside to get some air and some water and the guy I liked was over by one of the people we had already been introduced to so we went over to say hi and he shook my hand and found out his name was Randall. Then I tured to Liberty and told her that my goal of the night before it ended (which had like .. only 15 minutes left) was to dance with him. So we went back in and I guess they were playing a long remix of Britney Spears and Lanna and Brandi had left to dance with this lonely fat black dude which was cute, then Jamie was being harassed by a lesbian presence (which was even more funny) so it was basically just Liberty and I dancing and only a few feet over was Randall. Lib tried to get me to dance with him but I got scared cause I hate putting myself in the situation to be rejected so I never go out of my way to do something to someone else unless they want me to. Anyways.. he randomly (Randall) comes up to me and starts freak dancing with me. I was so fucking shocked that he was even doing this that I had forgotten how to dance for a few seconds. I was like.. startled dude. It was crazy cause he knew what to do (dancing) while I was like in utter shock. Then after a minute I started thinking:

"I need to do something cause if I don't, I'll end up regretting being idle.. DO SOMETHING DAMN IT!!"

So I slowly started touching him ("Me Against The Music" by Britney was playing.. I now have all respect for that song ;D Since it was my first homo-freak-out, haha) and then I actually just .. let go of all I thought and just .. danced with him. It was the first time I had ever danced with a guy -- thus why I was so scared of doing something wrong. And yeah, after the song ended -- it was the AWKWARDEST (spelling?) moment ever. I wanted to ask him what school he came from and to maybe get his email or somehting.. but NO, instead I just left. I fucking LEFT him after we danced. What the FUCK was I thinking?! Seriously. Then I got back in the group with everyone (Lanna, Liberty, Jamie and Brandi) and slow danced in a big circle. It was a nice night, but even though I did something with Randall, I felt like I didn't really .. socialize with him as I wanted to. I feel like such a jackass. I was going to ask Nate if he knew him, but I found out recently that there's a Gay Prom on May 29th, which we are planning to go to. So everything should be interesting, I really hope that guy goes there so I can actually talk to him.

But while at the dance I realized how stereotypical everyone was. Especially the dudes. I don't know if they are really like that or choose to dress like that strictly cause they're gay but .. it kinda put me off ease. I was the only guy there wearing black (yeah, except the 2 guys with long hair who liked Nirvana, say WHAT?!.. haha) but everyone else was wearing tight shirts, or talking "gay" or .. you know? Just gay-fevor had hit the fan and shit faced on everyone there or something. It was madness, but it was all good to see guys dancing together. It made mi corazone melt. Like CHOC-O-LATE. .. Sorry, being funny -- not working.

But right now I'm in the Library with mi amigo Eric and I guess I should be leaving in a few minutes. My rents are probably on my computer trying to find something to "prove" I've been lying to them. Just hope they don't find my porn. OH SHIT! *grabs face*

Everyone -- take care. HAHAHA This dude in the Library was justy rubbing this dude really weirdly.. UHM. The guy who was doing it was one of the guys I liked at the begining of the year. But I got over that one pretty quickly.

I guess I'll float on now. Bye for now.

xxxx