I remember the days when I would actually count down the days to my birthday. Always starting with months ahead of my actual birthday. And now.. one day away.. and I don't even care anymore. It's almost sad that I wish it wasn't, I don't want to become any older, I want to stay this age forever. Believe it or not, but when you're 15-17 you can get away with a lot of stuff you can't when you're in your 20's. I don't want to get closer to my death. I don't want friends to buy me things that I can't repay them back with later on. I'm cheap and poor. But at least I'm 2 years closer to actually having my porn on my computer become legal.

Oh hell yes! There's a secret page on Nicola Hitchcocks webpage that has all of Mandalays B-sides. I am so happy right now. I must listen to them, so I will take out my headphones and try. Even though I've already heard them and have them downloaded. :)

So the school year is dwindling down and I look around and I can't believe I know these people. I've only been here for not even a full year and I feel like I already know, and hate, these people.

There's a prom this saterday and some friends and I are going to it. I hope it turns out to be fun and worth it.

I'm sitting next to that guy again, he's laughing and sweating profusely at the same time. He's even turning red. It's almost disturbing. I know that I've seen him over in Granite Bay. I just now it.

My friend wasn't feel too good today. I hope everythings doing well for her. I believe she needs some time for herself so she can kind of recharge and .. I'm not sure. Something about being alone sometimes makes you feel better. So feel better, you know who you are. Satin Wings. I hope you do well with your poetry reading.

"And you feel I never loved you..
And you think you know me.
..You never knew me."

I should probably be going though.