And I Have A Sense To Recognize That I Don't Know How To Let You Go | |
August 03, 2004 //_ 9:27 PM | |
I didn't do much today. But I felt a lot of things.. Happiness to see my good best friend down in Granite Bay .. Joy in seeing her be happy with the signed Otep poster I got for her .. Sadness when feeling like I needed a hand to hold on .. Alone when I realized that maybe that person I want to hang onto doesn't want to hold me up when I'm weak .. And I don't like knowing that everyone else feels complete with their hands tucked in their pockets while .. the only thing I have to hold is myself. I fall asleep with thoughts racing through my mind. My tongue in my mouth and my eyes in place .. And I can't stop staring at my fan .. in thoughts. It makes me hold onto my pillows tighter. It helps me sleep. "The yearning to be near you, I do what I have to do .."
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