just a little nervous for a phone call, or actually seeing you at the show. but i'm going to take it as simple as everything can be. probably blown out of proportion anyway.

everything's getting a bit confused and stressful, but i think i can handle it. i think i'm actually getting overweight now. no one notices though cause it's all in my gut but i swear to god, its bloated like a dead pig on the side of the street. i've been lifting weights and doing crunches to try and tone up. there's a picture i have of some random guy that i want to have the same features as him. he hangs right next to my pillows.

"when everythings made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am"

i want to get in a fight. a punch in the mouth, a bruised body .. i want something to break the skin. but more importantly : i want to hurt them back. i want this pent up anger released. but i don't know how. somebody hate me.
a loose tooth and a broken jaw isn't much
what part did i play?
in making you the way you are?
xxxx