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Or Do You Feel, Enough Love Is Too Rare?
January 22, 2005 //_ 11:40 PM

i took some photos at a friends house. thought they were okay.
might as well put 'em up! i'm jesusy! i'm new and improved! i'm satire-ific!









no effects were used in any of these. they were just as when taken off the digi cam.

tonight was fun. sitting on top of the volkswagon van .. with empty shopping carts surrounding the van .. it was empty and it felt like we were really seeing something. the three of us could've stayed there all night. but albertsons called the cops and we had to bust.

just been listening to Mandalay for a while now. sometimes i wish i could be in another place with a different set of options.. i love what i have right now .. but i'm not pleased with myself yet. its like i'm still changing to find the real me below the shades of makeup. but until i find that ideal version of me.. i'll just have to face the fact that i'm fake.

i'm unreal. ________ +
i'm unnatural. _____ +
i'm not myself. ____ +

and i have so much to say. but it could be so much easier if he was here holding my hand right now. 6 hours away and still it's like i don't feel. and i haven't even had the chance to touch his face.

i want to make so much out of myself, i dont even know where to begin. i've started so many ideas i can't even remember how to complete these dreams. and whenever i beging to fall asleep, i can see the light i leave on turn a deep shade of blue.

its like i hardly see the sky somedays.
and i'd do better if i turned my head..
knowing you did.

xxxx

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