_he came over today. i realized something about our meetings, they always spark with doubt. (or maybe i'm just assuming) and we went to the mall. it wasn't awkward. it wasn't like the other times. it was .. open.

i owe him [this much] minus .50 cents. i made him buy the fragile CD by NIN and we looked at the cool lyrics and print*age. then we headed to his house.

all along the way (to the mall, to his house) i was noticing how beautiful nature really is. maybe it was because of the feeling i had inside, but the greens .. the oak tress.. the blooming flowers .. they all seemed to come together. i wish i had brought my camera. i found a perfect place across from the entrance to his development and i want to take photos there.
i want _him to be the object of my lense
he took me home. the ride was pleasant. we were chased by a disgrunted fat man. (we were driving about 70-80 to escape this man!) and it was delicious. i made pissy faces at him but he wouldn't notice. :/

if it wasn't for _him, i wouldn't know about so many wonderful things. and he's one of them.

as far as the eye can see:
too much perfection.
you ask me a simple lie and i cannot turn away
xxxx