so rather i'm tired of hearing the same bullshit from the same people. everyone's got SOMETHING to say, and 98% of the time, i've heard it before. it's like, everyone loves to repeat themselves, and when i don't answer them back, they repeat it again, until i make a notion that i actually care or something. and whenever i have no expression to wear around, people give me looks as if i have something to talk about. i don't, and if i would, i wouldn't tell it to you anyway.

so there's this new kid at my school. he's this freshman "emo" kid (bleached hair, tight girls pants, pierced lip) and all that bs, and everyone loves him. everytime i see him he's with a new group of people. everyones got something to say about this new kid, and as much as i've heard about him, i honestly don't care. would people be acting this way if he wasn't so outwardly sore? i mean, no one at our school dresses that "emo" and all the sudden, this new hot shit kid comes along and he's bait for everyone. if i were him, i'd tell everyone a different version of myself. i'd lie my ass off if i could get away with it. but that's just me. maybe he likes this attention. i, on the other hand, hate him for getting so much of it. until i get to know him, he's not better than any other random person i see. just cause he dresses differently and "[insert descriptive word relating to 'attractive']" doesn't mean he deserves the right to be set on a pedestal.

i've just been in a rut lately.
it'll pass. this is a phase.
i'm just making shit up.
talking out my ass.
slitting my own throat.
but it doesn't matter.
i'm just jealous.
so i'll hate you.

xxxx