sometimes i close my ears and i can go back to seeing you (i have so many things i wish i could've said) but i hesitated because i was never sure how you'd react i kind of have that sick feeling (deep down) when i'm nervous and i've heard some things that you've said about me, but i can't be sure yet. the words begin to smear the meaning fades and it's still just you and me in a room full of silence i'm holding you arm so you wont forget but who i am to you is less than what he (could) means to you to self-create a 2 way decision _ and loose. to spend days planning the perfect conversation _ when the other person wont talk. to get their phone number and finally decide to call _ only to hang up when they dont answer. to have them finally notice you talk to you touch you _ only to find out they're not really there. what it's like ________ to be alive _______________ then shot down. xxxx
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