Ode To The Sun. (it's over) | |
August 08, 2005 //_ 4:04 PM | |
long time no update. i haven't the time lately to sit down and really think things through. i can see everything moving around me but i'm still slowly dragging behind. i feel every emotion but somethings still missing. that unknown state of mind where .. you just feel like dying. i'm pretty sure things are heading in the right direction though. whether that be up or down .. i have a boyfriend now. well, i don't really believe in relationships anymore - but we're seeing eachother. whatever you want to make out of it. and whenever i'm around him .. every negative seems to fade from my picturesque memory. it's like: normal. faggot? me? why not. so, fuck you. i'm not your star. and i'm so afraid of losing touch. so many memories and so many faces .. i don't want to let go so fast. i don't want to ever leave this place. this state i'm in .. but sooner or later i knew i'd have to say goodbye .. at least till my head comes back. oh no. |
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