End III / A New Hole. | |
June 20, 2008 //_ 10:16 PM | |
needless to say, i ended what i had started. especially since every move that progressed us further was on my behalf.. i came to find that knife below my skull was placed there by myself. all that time.. the whole time -- and every now and then i can hear whispers of a memory but most of the time it's too dull to make a wave. / when i come to terms with what i've said i realize you never even heard me. and however many times i try to apologize it never escapes me lips. you never hear me and you never see. as much as i should pride myself on my tolerance, i can never find the strength to just let it go and forget. to just smile and laugh and nod like every other person. i hold my drink between my fingers. slam an empty glass on the counter, pass all the rooms and loud voices to find myself with a lighter but no cigarettes. and just as i turn the corner i see you .. coming to me with two cigarettes. at this point i smile and pretend everything's alright. |
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