I think in the back of my mind I know what's really going on. And I keep overlooking this thought.. replacing the feeling with being intoxicated.. until the next time I'm at your house and I linger just long enough to realize this feeling won't go away.

I want to ignore it. I want to believe it's not real.
I want to believe that what we have or what we COULD have can and WILL be real.
But this feeling is telling me it won't.

..however, there is a way to prove to me it's wrong.
You have the key, I gave it to you long ago.