i know i'm alive, i thought i was dead.

sorry for the absence, i swear i'm still here.. and i have so much to tell you.

there's been this little voice in my mind lately.. wrapping itself around my movements, creating shadows in my fields. it whispered about you one night; it must've felt like a cold knife in the throat- because it left my memory of you stained red. and once i hit send, it split me in half.

part of me wanting to apologize, and part of me wondering why i fucking care.
biting metal. tasting copper.

--on a completely different note:
2020 was a spectacular explosion of greatness and horror.
but i have my sights on 2021.

xxx