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July 12, 2021 //_ 2:03 PM

we told each other after Spookys passing that we wouldn't settle or run to fill a void where she used to be with new pets.. but a couple weeks ago we came across two kittens that caught our hearts. brother & sister.. one black and white boy, and a gray and white girl.. and it felt right. even if the time frame was sooner than we had thought- so we have two sweetie baby kittens in our lives now. Jordan named the boy Jasper and i named the girl Azuki (Japanese for 'sweet red beans').

and while we've been filled with the love of these babies, it still brings about pangs of loss over Spooky. i've even caught myself using our nicknames we had for her accidently.. and every night, we cuddle the stuffed animal we got that looks just like her. and i don't think we'll ever stop missing her. but the pains getting lighter every day.

i wish there were a 'restart' button, where we could have Spooky back from the beginning of her life, along with the new kittens. there's just something so sweet missing in this house since she's been gone. my constant nighttime companion, who would hang out with me while i binge watched horror movies while everyone was asleep and was by my side the entire time i watched How To Get Away With Murder from start to finish .. i'll miss that choonch.

so these kittens have some pretty big paws to fill.. but they're definitely wonderful. and i'm sure Spooky would approve- probably by sticking her nose up and sashaying away but none-the-less.

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