*This entry was typed out last night, so everything that's updated right now is actually about yesterday.*

Tonight was a pretty fuckin' bad ass night. Went to the Pipe down concert ... and wow, I don't think I've had so much fun here.. I saw so many people I knew from school.. and they knew me..

And what was funny... is while Katie, Sara and I were walking to get in line to get in.. a guy stopped me and was like "hey.. you look familuar..." and I was like, "Hm... I don't know you though.." and then I turned around and kept walking.. Then as the line kinda got fucked up or whatever, he looked at me again and was like "I know you.. are you from granite bay?" and I was like, "..Yeah.. Are you?" or something, and then one of his friends said I looked like Seth Green. Heh, and then it started to fall together, he then was like, "Goldfrapp fan right?" and then it hit me that it was Chris, from which I met online. Heh, he's really attractive.. He's pretty good looking though, he doesn't dress all femme like some other gay guys do. But yeah, He was talking to his friend and then we kinda just stopped talking. He saw me later on and I told him I saw him moshing. He's pretty cool. I admit, I wanted to grab his ass, but I didn't see him when I wanted to. So .. yeah, I probably would've pissed him off though. I don't care though.

The concert was okay. 1st band was such a wanna-be Deftones band. They were good though. Fuckin guitarist was hot shit. I got the vibes he was gay or bi too. But wooo for hot guys. Then the 2nd band was .. I don't remember. I didn't like them though. Not too good. 3rd band kicked ass. Their drummer was fuckin rad. And, the singer took off his shirt and he was pretty hot as well. It was a night to feast your eyes on man flesh. Oh, and I devoured it.. ;-) Then while Pipedown was setting up.. Laura and I went to the corner and were getting really close. We had this staring contest which was more like a really long delayed and drawn out awkward silence.. Then she looked at me deeper and gave me a kiss. We looked at each other again and then we started to make out. And I mean with tongue. It was strange though.. Never felt things like this. {and while we were "making out", Katie and Sara kept coming to the corner to look at us, I finally just flipped em off.. Haha) I'm no longer a kissing virgin to girls. It feels like I've been released from a cage.. It's a lot better. Even if I did loose Laura for the whole 2nd band thing .. But it's okay.

OH!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! I forgot about my HUGE DE JA VU thing! Okay.. so lemme just tell you my dream that I had about a month ago.

The dream was with me in some crowd.. red light was all that was reflecting off everyone.. And someone jumped off this platform and into the crowd.. A guy with a mohawk was not more than 2 feet away from me and As I looked at the stage or whatever, I saw a guy crouching and A guy standing playing something. Then I looked over at where the noise was coming from and I saw a girl sitting there playing with this bright thing in her mouth.. Then I woke up. I think I even TYPED this dream out before. I don't know when though.. But here's the fuckin' scariest thing..

As I was in the crowd for the 1st band.. I was by the speaker with Sara who was sitting next to the speaker, and we all had glow in the dark mouth thingies.. So as the band was playing, I looked over and a guy jumped into the crowd and this guy from school named Jimmy has this fatty mohawk and was RIGHT there, then I looked at the stage and the singer was crouching while screaming into the microphone and the cutie guitarist was playing, then I looked over at Sara who was playing with her mouth piece thingy.. Then I looked over at Lanna and I totally freaked out. THIS FUCKING THING HAPPENED A MONTH AGO IN MY FUCKING DREAM. This SHIT goes further into MY theory that dreams tell the future... And everything was SO vivid!!! And I'm not even shitting..

It was fuckin weird mad.. Fucking insane.

Then it was 10:20PM and as Laura and I decended into the mosh pit for Pipedown, I realized I had to go meet my dad at 10:30.. so I got out of the crowd, found Katie and Sara and went out.. eventually after the song ended Laura came out and then I gave her a goodbye hug/kiss and took off. Today was fucking fun as hell. Tomorrow I might be going to the United For Youth thing to help support the GSA booth that will be there. Katie will (hopefully) be going with me. I need to call her tomorrow. And then on Sunday I'm hopefully hanging out with Katie, Nick and Luara for the "double date".

And thanks to Sara, I now have 2 Pipedown pins and a pin that says, "I Love Porn" .. =)

So for the first time down here in Nevada City.. I really feel... complete. A sense of finding the answers and actually responding with them. While at the concert I saw so many people and they saw me and we all talked. Conversed. All that shit + the giggles. I feel really good. But why the fuck do I have a Dashboard Confessional song stuck in my head?!

Well.. I'm gonna go to bed. I'm really happy though. Even if I did get into shit with this one asshole from school about my collar (he even TOLD me to my face he's a homophobe and hates me.. but what made me feel even better was I had 3 girls that I don't even know that well stand up for me and talk back to him.. I hate that asshole SO much) I hope he fuckin eats shit and dies. >_<

But back to my dreams.. I'm just really happy.. content.. complete.. But we all know what's left from here... downfall. =/