I'm feeling sick to my stomach. And just when I'm about to explain it.. I loose it all. My train of thought. My ideas. My wants. My desires. It's all about me not you. I forget who I am when I'm with you.

I look at my contacts list.. and I don't even remember half .. MORE than half of these people.. and I don't even talk to them. It's not a game to have as many contacts as you can.. I have half a mind to just delete them all.

And I know that you shouldn't care but can you make it less painful? Could you leave me lying here bleeding alone? Could you just make it that easier. Please.

xxxx