i have a lot of words that i'd like to say right now, but i'm afraid if i got them all out they wouldn't sound right and the way i'd mean them wouldn't fit with how they would be read. i'm thinking of a lot of things at once, a few stand out more than others, and i miss people.

i would pick up the phone and call you.
but i know i won't.

i would type out an email and send it to you.
but i know i won't.

because i'm afraid you're not feeling the same way i do about you. i don't know.