|July 23, 2014 //_ 1:32 PM|
last night I took the final knife stab at our "friendship" .. whatever it may have been between us.
7 + 2 +2 + 2 +1 + 4 = 1+8= 9 completion.
distant. cold. unattached. unaffected.
cause when I look back, it seems to me that I initiated every time we had together. [from the very beginning to the very end.] and so now, I'm done. horrible timing your birthday is next week. I remember you telling me you had even bought me a card for mine. shame that I'll never know what it said.
and from .. whatever it was between us - I will take with me a part of myself that was self destructive and insecure. you will represent that timeframe for me and whatever may happen down the future.. I'll just say right now: it will never be the same between us.
I have seen what is greener on the other side.. and I'm afraid I'm not going to come back.