spoon-booms. | |
June 19, 2021 //_ 11:31 AM | |
yesterday you arrived in a cedar box. i have flashbacks of images of when you left us. that whole day.. a ticking clock.. a countdown. and i know you were sleepy, and i know you were tired.. and all i wanted was to hold you and snudgle.. but i let you lie. i let you have your normal morning. i let you believe it was an ordinary day. and the whole time- i knew. and i couldn't bring myself to disrupt you. and why do i keep having thoughts that i could've done more, been there more, been more sweeter, cherished more moments, kissed your head more.. you came into my life as an accessory to a man i love, and became the center OF our love.. i miss you, spooky. my little choon-juun.. and even tho you weren't "mine" to begin with, i'm so fucking glad i was there, to see you thru the ending. |
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